Hey guys,
I've just started university, engineering to be exact. I'm working hard but I feel I'm struggling with several things.
The first and foremost is the inability to concentrate on what professors say in a lecture. I can concentrate on it for a few minutes before my mind begins to wander, and then I've lost the plot of whats going on. My mind just wanders to anything it can, I can't keep it concentrated the whole lecture. I had the same issue in highschool, but I could always get through because the work load was fuck all and working through the same problems for days on end would just allow me to learn from notes I was copying. So far it hasn't been really bad, I can go on youtube and watch videos which I can pause and rewind as much as possible. But now we're starting to get into work that is increasingly difficult and which has less resources available for it. I am concerned that as difficult increases and resources decrease, I am going to be in serious trouble.
The second issue I'm facing is the inability to study in one place at once. I'll be sitting at a bank of computers and I'll do 10-20minutes of work before I feel I just have to get up and go for a short walk. It's an urge; whether its to go for a piss that I dont need or grab I drink I dont really need either, I get up 4-5 times more than everyone else. Same issue as before, my mind also wanders but the urge to get up and walk around is the predominant disruption.
The third issue that really annoys me is forgetting things. It's a real bastard. I get up in the morning, have a good hard think of whether or not I have everything, and being unable to remember all that I need, I go to my car. Then I get to my car; "shit where are the keys". Wallk inside, get keys, come back to car; "shit where's my pencil case". Walk back inside, get case, come back to car; "Oh for fucks sake where's my fucking fork for my lunch?". Walk back inside, get fork, come back to car.... this kind of shit happens a lot. When ever I'm leaving to do something away from home for the day or few hours, I get this issue (2-3 returns inside) and I'm really sick of it. I just can't conjure a mental plan of everything I need before I leave. I can get 50-75% of all I need but I forget things. It's not a lack of memory, it's a lack of concentration. I go to get something sometimes and I'll get to the location and do something else and then leave, completely ignoring my original plan in favour of something else that popped into my head.
I don't have as bad concentration issues when in the gym or doing physical work because my mind can wander or whatever. Any kind of intellectual work gives me trouble.
These issues were manageable in highschool. Now that I have long, heavy days and little spare time, I can't allow these inefficiencies to go on unchecked. They are going to cause me to struggle in uni and possibly fail, and it makes me mad that I can't do a lot about this with sheer willpower (I have tried.). I'm not a weak person, I still manage to squeeze in all my weekly workouts and do some hobby chemistry when I have holidays. But I'm not working at my potential and it really unsettles me.
Something I never have trouble concentrating on... researching a drug synthesis. Something about it, I can get totally obsessed and do it for hours. Compiling resources, finding first hand synthesis accounts, sourcing chemicals.
I could possibly pull off a synthesis. I just landed $7000 on a joint venture with a friend selling cannabinoid infused damiana herb on the market, so 1-2 thousand dollars would be available for precursors and I have afar amount of equipment. What would concern me though, starting with the 2-phenyl-2-(2-piperidyl)acetamide 3 compound would be impurities. Plus, I am unsure how difficult it would be to source the former chemical from an overseas chemical company. I guess that there would be no real way to tell that what I was getting was what I ordered either, or that my end product would be uncontaminated with impurities.
What does everyone think? Should I present these symptoms to a doctor or try and go it alone? I want to stay away from adderall for two reasons: I don't need amphetamine to help me concentrate and I don't want a dependence on such a powerful stimulant. I need something mild, long lasting. I dont think its legal as a prescrip here anyway.
I've just started university, engineering to be exact. I'm working hard but I feel I'm struggling with several things.
The first and foremost is the inability to concentrate on what professors say in a lecture. I can concentrate on it for a few minutes before my mind begins to wander, and then I've lost the plot of whats going on. My mind just wanders to anything it can, I can't keep it concentrated the whole lecture. I had the same issue in highschool, but I could always get through because the work load was fuck all and working through the same problems for days on end would just allow me to learn from notes I was copying. So far it hasn't been really bad, I can go on youtube and watch videos which I can pause and rewind as much as possible. But now we're starting to get into work that is increasingly difficult and which has less resources available for it. I am concerned that as difficult increases and resources decrease, I am going to be in serious trouble.
The second issue I'm facing is the inability to study in one place at once. I'll be sitting at a bank of computers and I'll do 10-20minutes of work before I feel I just have to get up and go for a short walk. It's an urge; whether its to go for a piss that I dont need or grab I drink I dont really need either, I get up 4-5 times more than everyone else. Same issue as before, my mind also wanders but the urge to get up and walk around is the predominant disruption.
The third issue that really annoys me is forgetting things. It's a real bastard. I get up in the morning, have a good hard think of whether or not I have everything, and being unable to remember all that I need, I go to my car. Then I get to my car; "shit where are the keys". Wallk inside, get keys, come back to car; "shit where's my pencil case". Walk back inside, get case, come back to car; "Oh for fucks sake where's my fucking fork for my lunch?". Walk back inside, get fork, come back to car.... this kind of shit happens a lot. When ever I'm leaving to do something away from home for the day or few hours, I get this issue (2-3 returns inside) and I'm really sick of it. I just can't conjure a mental plan of everything I need before I leave. I can get 50-75% of all I need but I forget things. It's not a lack of memory, it's a lack of concentration. I go to get something sometimes and I'll get to the location and do something else and then leave, completely ignoring my original plan in favour of something else that popped into my head.
I don't have as bad concentration issues when in the gym or doing physical work because my mind can wander or whatever. Any kind of intellectual work gives me trouble.
These issues were manageable in highschool. Now that I have long, heavy days and little spare time, I can't allow these inefficiencies to go on unchecked. They are going to cause me to struggle in uni and possibly fail, and it makes me mad that I can't do a lot about this with sheer willpower (I have tried.). I'm not a weak person, I still manage to squeeze in all my weekly workouts and do some hobby chemistry when I have holidays. But I'm not working at my potential and it really unsettles me.
Something I never have trouble concentrating on... researching a drug synthesis. Something about it, I can get totally obsessed and do it for hours. Compiling resources, finding first hand synthesis accounts, sourcing chemicals.
I could possibly pull off a synthesis. I just landed $7000 on a joint venture with a friend selling cannabinoid infused damiana herb on the market, so 1-2 thousand dollars would be available for precursors and I have afar amount of equipment. What would concern me though, starting with the 2-phenyl-2-(2-piperidyl)acetamide 3 compound would be impurities. Plus, I am unsure how difficult it would be to source the former chemical from an overseas chemical company. I guess that there would be no real way to tell that what I was getting was what I ordered either, or that my end product would be uncontaminated with impurities.
What does everyone think? Should I present these symptoms to a doctor or try and go it alone? I want to stay away from adderall for two reasons: I don't need amphetamine to help me concentrate and I don't want a dependence on such a powerful stimulant. I need something mild, long lasting. I dont think its legal as a prescrip here anyway.
