Actually last year was a classic example- a woman whotexted me every day, day in day out, would send naked pics to me, spent so long talking and chatting.  On her facebook page every single day without fail, her boyfriend posted how much he loved her and was thinking of her.. Everyday, and she posted back she loves him too.. i gues when he questioned who she was messaging she just started an arguement in women style that he would lose because he was a pussy.. this is where i get my lack of faith in monogamy and women. some are ok though, i guess. Maybe best to rely on out of sight out of mind

With this girl, she is the same. She doesn't do shallow relationships just for sex. Indeed I wouldn't do that with/to her, because I have way too much respect, and genuine, deep respect is what I have for her, and vice versa. There is love, lust is there, she is classically autistic, as I, we are both intense people. I wouldn't just turn up for sex, the shallowness of that is not something either of us do.

It just is not what she stands for, and I would not do that one bit, because it would likely make her feel debased, I wouldn't even wish to tempt her, for those reasons, because of the great risk of both hurting her feelings through regret afterwards, and worse perhaps, having her hurt her own feelings, violating what she stands for. She, as I, believe in mutual respect and love, as well as a meeting of intellectual interaction, people in her past have not accepted her for who she is in her entirety. She is very, very unusual in both some of her needs, and wants. She is very intense in how she feels, and what her opinions are.

I don't just accept that in/of her, I like that in a woman, strength, determination, someone who stands up for herself, and does not take shit from anybody. Treat her like that, and you are gone, simple as.

One ex in her past, who was a pisshead, turned up drunk, and she told him basically to get out of her house, and do not come back unless you are both sober, and act with the respect she deserves, go sleep in the car, reply 'but I could freeze to death in that degree of cold' (not exact quote but words to that exact effect), reply from her, again paraphrased 'tough cookies, you made your decision by your actions, if that is the case, so be it'

Regardless of your opinion jon, she is not a cheater, nor two-faced, I won't generalise and say all autistic or asperger's people are like that, meet one aspie/autie, and that, is all you have done. But between me, and the woman I love, we stand for quite a lot of the same things in common, although we have many differences between the two of us, variety as they say, is the spice of life. I adore her quirks, personally.

Generalizations about her, or me, do not apply. I am not the same, or even remotely similar to most males, or indeed most any NT, hell, I am not particularly similar to aspies, or many auties, although the latter are my sexual preference as a mate and partner, both emotionally and physically. I have connected in a way like this, although very different once, and once  only in my life.

Shake, my last relationship was NOT the hellwhore housemate. I was propositioned yes, but I rejected that, as kindly as possible at the time, not knowing what a psychotic, sociopathic, vindictive liar, thief and manipulative little viper she is. She, by her conniving and manipulations split me up from my last relationship, although me and that particular girl (aspie, in her case rather than LFA/kanner's autistic, or HFA, to use the commonly understood amongst NTs, although by far from liked at all, by me, and many others of us, functioning levels do not mean shit all but are often applied based on essentially judging a book by its cover, being unable or without the knowledge, or oftimes even willingness to spend the time to get close to this who wish any contact or closeness with any humans whatsoever)

My former GF I dated last, however, is still a very good friend, we talk often)

Shake, in ANY relationship I enter into, I do not go for anybody I cannot trust, I made the mistake dating a few NTs in my younger days, now I know to do otherwise and to take care with who I date. My current GF is the one, like I say, I wish to marry. If I date somebody, what they see in me, is what they get, I do not hide aspects of my personality, but am open, and brutally honest, and that is what I want in return from a partner. Love, but at the same time, the willingness to be honest, and up front about who they are, and what they want out of the relationship, what they will give of themselves willingly (for I will not take or demand what is not willingly shared, although I will ask what they are willing to give, and that, I give in return, that is the way to earn my respect, as well as my love)

She is a thousand miles off from crazy.

Translation, jon?

Shake, don't take this as an insult, it isn't intended to be one, it isn't even directed at you specifically, but she is not 'odd' NT people may well find her ways and psychological makeup most unusual, indeed, shes a most unusual woman, but to me, every last single thing thats unusual, her personal quirks, and way of thinking, every single bit of that, drives me absolutely crazy. And as to weather people understand my wanting to be with her, if either they don't approve, don't accept it, I really could not care a dying syphilic harlot's decaying cadaver-fart weather THEY like it not. What matters to me, is bringing her happiness, of course my own matters too. she is to me personally, the most beautiful woman I have ever had the pleasure of setting eyes on, both outside and inside. There is a lot to her, she is a very deep person, and in my eyes, an absolute stunner.

As for attracting odd women, unfortunately I have attracted some real frickin' lunatic crazy ratbastards, one of them I possibly got pregnant, she showed me an ultrasound scan, although I don't know if it was truly hers/mine, then she did a bunk, never to be seen again. Mouse was utterly full of shit at times, so I just do not know. Nor do I give a shit. She made her bed, so she can sleep in it (and preferably never wake up), cheated on me, attempted at one point to go commit. Took an APAP OD, then phoned me to tell me about it. I had to run all the way to the next two towns along, calling an ambulance on the way, then point her out while she was serving at the counter to more or less have the EMTs drag her out. She was NOT pleased with me after that.

Another time, she accused me, and a female friend of pinning her down in a graveyard and biting her face/throat, had friends of hers after me at the time.

My only hope about her, apart from abject misery is that IF the kid tale is the truth, which it may well not be, it could have been another woman that the kid isn't spesh, because none of my people deserve a virulent, tramp  like her as a mother.

But this lass, is truly a very special lady.

Odd....hmmm. I think its because I bond with classically autistic girls or aspies and animals (the latter in a strictly non-sexual way of course), as both friends and lovers. I went to two special schools, one a kanner's specialist school when I was younger, the other, secondary boarding school for aspies mainly, I have spent most of my life from childhood around them. I have dated at least 3 NT women that I can think of, and I just wouldn't ever do that again now, I am simply not sexually attracted to them at all. they are just strange as hell. Friends yes, although I have absolutely no need for those whatsoever, I would rather keep a few very close friends than a large social circle of those I neither know/am friends with nearly so well, and its usually the somewhat eccentric/eclectic people I do have as contacts.

I don't expect people to understand, its quite simple, I love the lady in question dearly, I would take a bullet for her if I had to without hesitation. Love her, simple as, people can think what they like, its not going to change a damned thing.

haha thats why Alice Springs has the highest murder rate in AUS, and the population is tiny

well obviously you didn't get the job done.
where did you get him?

LOL.

I did something similar in my spesh school (the one intended for those with AS rather than classically autistic like myself, as opposed to the LFA/kanner's autism school I went to before that)

There was this guy who was a right royal wind up merchant par excellence, a deliberately aggravating ratbastart supremo bar none, the staff got on my case at the beginning, seeing as how I was paid cash not to use curse words (not a huge amount sadly, but every time I swore, they had it so I lost a little bit of the money I would have earned), but for some reason, after he pushed, and pushed, and pushed for weeks and months, eventually I turned round and shivved him with a sharpened pencil.

They accepted that, without complaint, seeing as how I didn't employ any of the cruder offensive (english) words in my vocabulary as I stabbed him

I don't remember all of this one, but  when I was of primary school age, either just starting or not far in, and it was being realised I didn't fit in at all, or wish to associate with kids, and would NOT put up with being patronized or talked down to as if I were just some little child to be ordered about and told what to think, what to say, how to sit, how I should go about learning what it was intended I learn (irrespective of learning it, I had issues with being told HOW I MUST learn the things in question, etc.) I got referred to a psychologist, this was way before I was dx as spesh, apparently I got rather irritated with the headshrinker, asking me questions that to me, were blindingly obvious in answer and that were so simple, anyone should know, the way psychs do with (or rather, TO, there is a difference, subtle in semantics, but large in nature) people of that age, I took as insulting to my intelligence, and stabbed her in the leg, whilst making a rather offensive comment about bongo drums (she was black)

I think I was about 5 at the time.

I'm English (no, not british, that term has become too full of filth, trash and banana-boat vermin of late, and thanks to bootlicking toadies who masturbate to papers on political correctness, churned out by whiny, whingeing prats that make actual paid careers out of 'diversity' nobody in the pathetic bunch of spineless thieving sellouts that call themselves our government will do shit about it)

But I don't understand a fucking word of that last bit. Reads like a foreign language, no, actually, reads like unintelligible horseshit to me, I don't know what that means, apart from 'rooted the yank', thats obvious.

Oh I am excellent at thread-raping.

You should hear them scream for mercy, until I break out the duct tape, the lump hammer and start twatting finger joints one by one.........Hell, I am worse than kassiane sibley, the RettDevil, autie activist chick with serious kick arse attitude (who can, incidentally kick herself in the forehead from a standing position), just about, mind you. That is a compliment to her, though, by far from an insult, shes lovely (unless you work for autism squeaks...err SPEAKS, sorry...ahem...coughfuckingratbastardscoughsplutterhawkgozzonfloorincontemptarrkkgghcuntinghellmychest....I must be smoking too many rollups...


Lost in space? never heard of it, well, heard the name but thats the total extent of my knowledge of it.

Psychedelics....yes, I like my psychedelics, very much so.

I actually have a feeling that an early experience with psilocybin triggered 'something', I am not sure WHAT exactly, do to with my autism, I used to be, when much younger, less aware of peoples intents/reading them etc.

I had harvested some libs, (it helps having a special interest in mycology since you were old enough to walk, and to read, which I did at a very early age), from the hills over in yorkshire, where my grandma use to live, before she died a few years back, and smuggled them along in my luggage when I went on a residential leisure trip (pun intended) with my LFA school.

I noticed soon after, week or two and ongoing timescale wise, that I became more able not to connect with other people or to relate to them (I do not consider the fact that I very, very VERY seldom relate to another person in a way I truly connect with them both emotionally and as intellectual equals, my ex fiancee cazzie, who I haven't seen since she was 14:(, was one, and my current GF, who will not be named publicly here, are the only two people that I have ever truly 'clicked' with and formed a deep connection, although very close to that I did to a girl I dated who is both LFA and mentally retarded, who again, I miss as a friend, trying to get in contact with her actually via a friend who works with people with mental retardation.   but to become more aware of their relation to my surroundings. I would have put it down to life experience, if it wasn't the fact that i noticed this happening, became aware of gaining awareness, if that makes sense.


This was when I was...not sure exactly, but 9-10-MAYBE 11, previous to that I hadn't really taken any substances, other than a few crafty guilps of C2H4OH when I could obtain some, and all too much semi-pyrolysed (1-methylpyrrolidin-2-yl)pyridine, aside from the fly agaric mushroom.

I try to take regular trips actually, even if the most I can do is a handful of times a year (which is not usually the case of course) I find that over time, psychological fluff and garbage needs hoovering out up top, my processor fan needs a good cobweb sweeping, and a psychedelic cleansing, on my own, either earplugs in (I sleep with them every night to block out sensory input...keep a pair of haemostats handy, one on the side of my bedside table (I.E gun/med cabinet with a microwave on top thats good for keeping candy, snacks, various vials, petri dishes of projects crystallising out, some rolling baccy for a midnight smoke or three and various assorted other stuff on etc.) and one nearby in case I lose the first..happened once that was a bit annoying and somewhat alarming, in a 'shit what if these are stuck in there' sort of way.

Or loud, loud and VERY loud funeral/doom/drone doom like say, Sunn O))), khanate etc. and tech metal.

Blindfold on. Blast the fuck off.

Although I prefer it utterly silent when I do DMT.

I enjoy dissociatives also, while they are bad for memory, this appears to be negated by use of 'racetams, I usually use aniracetam (no not the ergot farmer, the pyrollidine based drug) but bought a key of piracetam lately as it was all I could afford, and I'm going to go back on a cholinesterase inhibitor again, I tried galantamine once, but I can't get it scripted, they just won't give it to people with cognitive difficulties in the UK outside of private doctors which I cannot afford, only for advanced dementia/alzheimers, and even then, poor cunts face a postcode lottery:(

So most likely it will be the cholinesterase inhibitor/polyamine binding site NMDAr antagonist huperzine-A again.

Other than that, acid, but very little experience with it, bufotenine insufflated, 5-MeO-DALT, psilocybin mushrooms...ayahuasca twice, yopo snuff (grew the plants too but the filth killed them, rather, I got jailed and the person I asked to tend to them, did not do what he said he would and left them to die) I quite liked that as a pick me up in small doses, large ones are real hard going. Parika/yakee once....never again, ow owo owowowowowowowo fuckcuckfuckfuckcuntingbastardjesusgoatrapingmotherofbluefurryflyingratbastardfuckingfuckmy nosemynosemynose! various funky herbs...

Can't wait to to try 2C-D, DOM, and nBOMe-2C-D (I may try the amphetamine counterpart to the latter bomamine compound too, literature says that they are at best, at least those so far tested, are weak partial agonists, however a partial agonist is very common in psychedelics, although some of the DOx, notably DOI and DOB are full agonists, as is DOB-dFLY, who says though, even if only 200mg or so gets prepared, that it should not be assayed, I feel they should. Even if it turns out to be a selective 5HT2a antagonist, it is worth finding out.

I have for that matter taken a 5HT2a antagonist, and found it interesting and worthwhile. Good sleep aid, and it induced incredibly vivid not far from lucid dreaming, a most effective oneirogen, I want to try it combined with valerian root, which I find similar in effect as far as dreaming goes. Will take it again if I can lay hold of some more.